Monday 8 December 2008
Monday 1 December 2008
just let me hold you
"Autumn"
Autumn leaves under frozen souls,
Hungry hands turing soft and old,
My hero crying as we stood out their in the cold,
Like these autumn leaves I dont have nothing to hold.
Handsome smiles wearing handsome shoes,
Too young to say, though I swear he knew,
And i hear him singing while he sits there in his chair,
While these autumn leaves float around everywhere.
And I look at you, and I see me,
Making noise so restlessly,
But now its quiet and I can hear you sing,
'My little fish dont cry, my little fish dont cry.'
Autumn leaves how fading now,
That smile that ive lost, well ive found some how,
Because you still live on in my fathers eyes,
These autumn leaves, all these autumn leave,
all these autumn leaves are yours tonite.
Autumn leaves under frozen souls,
Hungry hands turing soft and old,
My hero crying as we stood out their in the cold,
Like these autumn leaves I dont have nothing to hold.
Handsome smiles wearing handsome shoes,
Too young to say, though I swear he knew,
And i hear him singing while he sits there in his chair,
While these autumn leaves float around everywhere.
And I look at you, and I see me,
Making noise so restlessly,
But now its quiet and I can hear you sing,
'My little fish dont cry, my little fish dont cry.'
Autumn leaves how fading now,
That smile that ive lost, well ive found some how,
Because you still live on in my fathers eyes,
These autumn leaves, all these autumn leave,
all these autumn leaves are yours tonite.
pandora's box, a literal explosion
I write this blog out of interest, not as a career move. I may come across somewhat natural and witty, but to be honest, I am not intelligent. I cannot do maths, science or geography. neither art, p.e or french. Just incase anyone was under a false impression. Infact im quite a tard.
I talk like i have just been spat out of some northern working mens club
bric a brac excites me
hardly anyone sees my handwriting, but i take great pride in doing it properly
sarcasm has reached a whole new level in my vocabulary that i am more than not, sarcastic rather than sincere
i bloody love sugar puffs
i am not easily offended
i am still waiting for a book to fulfill my literary needs
I talk like i have just been spat out of some northern working mens club
bric a brac excites me
hardly anyone sees my handwriting, but i take great pride in doing it properly
sarcasm has reached a whole new level in my vocabulary that i am more than not, sarcastic rather than sincere
i bloody love sugar puffs
i am not easily offended
i am still waiting for a book to fulfill my literary needs
Monday 24 November 2008
You are my sunshine
hardly memoirs, but for the inquisitive souls, here is a part of my life rolled out infront of you all.
What is your idea of a “perfect day?” to wake up in my perfect bedroom, with vintage birdcages and a full tea set laid on a beautiful 1920's table, with fancy doyley's and flowers in a vase. To then eat heart shaped chocolate pancakes and sip earl grey, in a petticoat and lace gloves. Almost like a alice in wonderland environment. Then to go vintage shopping in vintage shops and charity shops, the best in the world, and stop off to meet friends for afternoon tea, for scones and coffee with a sly glug of brandy. Then top off a day with a night out with the boy, to eat mexican and watch reruns of kenan and kel and sabrina the teenage witch.
Do you have any favorite television shows? As mentioned before, kenan and kel and sabrina just bring me back to my childhood, besides being incredibly witty for being a childrens program. I also have a rather large soft spot for The Mighty Boosh and Peep show. I love old programs, shitty ones like Men Behaving Badly and Blackadder. truly tickles my funny bone.
What’s your favorite place in the whole world? other country wise, i adore Portugal. it is so old worldy, if you can understand what i mean. Its so traditional and beautiful, the buildings and the weather, its just truly exquisite. I would really love to go to Paris one day, that i my next goal. Within my own country, of what i saw, London was incredible, and i really love the countryside. i always used to go to the lake district as a child, and with my school, so i hold amazing memories within those hills.
You at 35: with my own vintage shop selling some of the best items in the land. To live with a husband or partner, organising events e.g tea parties and parties at the shop and be able to travel and maybe a kid or 2?
How do you manage your wardrobe & your budget? I don't basically, i use every penny i get on clothes in some way, i even save up dinner money and starve to death everyday just for a few extra quid. the reason why im not blogging very often is because im working long hours everynight, just to fund the habit. that is dedication.
What are the items you just have to splurge on? shoes. If i have fallen for them, i have to have them, no matter what. My most expensive pair are £80
what advice do you have for me so people can see my inner stylista? Its all about finding yourself and knowing what type of person you want to be moulded into. Listen to your heart and be creative. Don't let anyone tell you not to wear something because fashion should be individual, not what people tell you SHOULD wear, it is so closed minded. You should have a picture of a person with amazing fashion sense, and make that person you, don't do things in halves, if you want to achieve this, don't hold back, and you will get your rewards.
With the year coming to an end, if you were to write your own autobiography what would this chapter be called and why? This chapter would be called "and it continues" because i know that there is so much to come to me, i am yet to reach my full potential. i have the goals, i just need to perform them.
What do you do apart from your blog? I am at college a lot of the time, and working, so i do not get a lot of time to myself, on top of all that, lots of homework, but the only reason i am putting my personal life on hold a little, is because i know that if i work hard know, in 5 years time i will be able to write this again and say that i am beyond fulfilled. i still have time for some ebay shopping and friends. especially with christmas and new year coming up, i will be doing things like ice skating and watching christmas films with the family, and im really looking forward to it.
What’s your favorite kind of animal? for comical factor, i love the idea of badgers, but really, i have such a soft spot for cats. I used to have a cat who was almost like a best friend, i know that sounds pathetic, but when my parents are working and im alone, he was my only company. we only lost him a month ago to the day, and it was really hard to cope with.
What is your idea of a “perfect day?” to wake up in my perfect bedroom, with vintage birdcages and a full tea set laid on a beautiful 1920's table, with fancy doyley's and flowers in a vase. To then eat heart shaped chocolate pancakes and sip earl grey, in a petticoat and lace gloves. Almost like a alice in wonderland environment. Then to go vintage shopping in vintage shops and charity shops, the best in the world, and stop off to meet friends for afternoon tea, for scones and coffee with a sly glug of brandy. Then top off a day with a night out with the boy, to eat mexican and watch reruns of kenan and kel and sabrina the teenage witch.
Do you have any favorite television shows? As mentioned before, kenan and kel and sabrina just bring me back to my childhood, besides being incredibly witty for being a childrens program. I also have a rather large soft spot for The Mighty Boosh and Peep show. I love old programs, shitty ones like Men Behaving Badly and Blackadder. truly tickles my funny bone.
What’s your favorite place in the whole world? other country wise, i adore Portugal. it is so old worldy, if you can understand what i mean. Its so traditional and beautiful, the buildings and the weather, its just truly exquisite. I would really love to go to Paris one day, that i my next goal. Within my own country, of what i saw, London was incredible, and i really love the countryside. i always used to go to the lake district as a child, and with my school, so i hold amazing memories within those hills.
You at 35: with my own vintage shop selling some of the best items in the land. To live with a husband or partner, organising events e.g tea parties and parties at the shop and be able to travel and maybe a kid or 2?
How do you manage your wardrobe & your budget? I don't basically, i use every penny i get on clothes in some way, i even save up dinner money and starve to death everyday just for a few extra quid. the reason why im not blogging very often is because im working long hours everynight, just to fund the habit. that is dedication.
What are the items you just have to splurge on? shoes. If i have fallen for them, i have to have them, no matter what. My most expensive pair are £80
what advice do you have for me so people can see my inner stylista? Its all about finding yourself and knowing what type of person you want to be moulded into. Listen to your heart and be creative. Don't let anyone tell you not to wear something because fashion should be individual, not what people tell you SHOULD wear, it is so closed minded. You should have a picture of a person with amazing fashion sense, and make that person you, don't do things in halves, if you want to achieve this, don't hold back, and you will get your rewards.
With the year coming to an end, if you were to write your own autobiography what would this chapter be called and why? This chapter would be called "and it continues" because i know that there is so much to come to me, i am yet to reach my full potential. i have the goals, i just need to perform them.
What do you do apart from your blog? I am at college a lot of the time, and working, so i do not get a lot of time to myself, on top of all that, lots of homework, but the only reason i am putting my personal life on hold a little, is because i know that if i work hard know, in 5 years time i will be able to write this again and say that i am beyond fulfilled. i still have time for some ebay shopping and friends. especially with christmas and new year coming up, i will be doing things like ice skating and watching christmas films with the family, and im really looking forward to it.
What’s your favorite kind of animal? for comical factor, i love the idea of badgers, but really, i have such a soft spot for cats. I used to have a cat who was almost like a best friend, i know that sounds pathetic, but when my parents are working and im alone, he was my only company. we only lost him a month ago to the day, and it was really hard to cope with.
Wednesday 5 November 2008
Tuesday 7 October 2008
Old Mother Hubbard
After following episodes of Sex and the city again, my life felt a little unfulfilled to say the least. I felt like this after watching the movie a good few months back now. Coming into my house, opening my wardrobe doors, and feeling empty inside. When im feeling low, sometimes my diet and or/ my fashion is all I feel I have, and realising how bare my wardrobe felt, my green eyed monster luring over my shoulder, it made me feel pretty low, but I tend to over-react a little sometimes. But, unlike many critics, I don't think that Carrie Bradshaw & Co. are a bad influence on not only young women, but older also. Some may regard them as sluts with credit cards, some as fashion icons of the 90's and 00's. They may just be a figure of someones imagination when you think deep enough into it, but believe it or not, trying to get in the mindset of Miss Bradshaw, a sudden rush of glamour and sophistication and self importance become apparent, and if im wrong, fair enough, but apart from a natural interest in fashion, a main reason to wear what I do, is to evoke such feelings you would have as Carrie.
Would I rather be a middle-aged party girl, with a knack of making anything look beautiful and the perfect job, stopping for a cosmo at eleven in the morning than a married up, drab, menopausal cow who automatically judges such people as "whores", when in reality, they would would give their right breast just to have a life half as exciting, fun and fabulous.
Never have I seen a program so revolutionary as eating ice-pops with your girlfriends, whilst waiting for your doctor to administer you chemotherapy.
I link me wanting to be happy, with those non-exsistent people being upbeat through some of the toughest experiences a human being can go through. Just a few bars if the title sequence music puts a spring in your step.
But still I ask myself, on top of this, why do I strive for a life like this? Most episodes involve moaning of some sort, so why does their lives seem so perfect?
Carrie's epiphany moment in Paris really did undermine my exsistance. The moment of untold joy bestowed on her face is enough to make even the queen's life feel unfulfilled. This strive for perfection can become unhealthy, but can also be a motivation. If you fail to reach perfection, the feeling of emptiness can become overwhelming. After having your heart set on something, and no matter how many people tell you otherwise, you feel a failure. But, if these goals are reached, undescribable bliss will keep you going for life. Many people don;t have aspirations, due to the fear of failing. But as they say, "Don't let the fear of striking out, keep you from playing the game". Life should be about taking risks, and the risk of failing shouldn't stop someone from following their dreams, and this can be taken into fashion perspectives aswell. The difference between women nowadays and Carrie, Samantha, Charlotte and Miranda, are that these women reach for their dreams and live their life how they want it to be lived. Life should not be full of rules and boundaries, and neither should fashion. Everything should be like an open book, where anyone is possible of anything, and how can a programme who promotes this be a bad influence?
Carrie truly just makes my heart go a flutter
Bravo Patricia Field
Saturday 28 June 2008
I feel like Oliver Twist
jesus, i am so skint, it is beyond a joke.
I have applied for a few jobs, but nothing has come back as such
I can't even afford to buy my beautiful Luella tee from tonicgen.com which i have wanted for a milliooonnn years, or so it feels. And its only £23, buttons.
I have applied for a few jobs, but nothing has come back as such
I can't even afford to buy my beautiful Luella tee from tonicgen.com which i have wanted for a milliooonnn years, or so it feels. And its only £23, buttons.
Friday 27 June 2008
sighs of relief
incredible lack of posts :S
my infinate apologies
but, to be honest, these may have been the most important exams of my life so far, so they needed alot of my time, it was very stressful, but they are done, and I have left school, and everything is just starting to settle down, so obviously i will be able to spend alot more time on my posts.
when leaving school, i was asked, why am i so interested in "fashion", i hate saying that i am into fashion, because i think it is so single minded and almost common. But, anyway, i was posed with this question, and i really did not know what to say. Its like when people say to gay people, when did you realise you were gay? and they say that they never just realised, its always been there inside of them. This may have been the only time i have ever talked to any of my friends about fashion. We talk about about fashion, but it just isnt in depth, it was always talks of buying something from the high street. I just dont think they get it, i would like to have someone to have a proper conversation with about fashion. Just one of the pointless reasons that i can't wait to leave this place, recently, it was really been getting me down. My town is very common, with not much fashion sense. I wore a high bun in my hair one day, and people thought i was stupid. i met an ex teacher of mine who said she never realised it was me, because of my perculiar hair style :S
no can be an individual in this place, its like a clone machine. If you don't shop in primark and wear £3 clothes, you arn't in fashion these days, or so it seems here. I need to go somewhere with people who actually get me :/
i even feel like most of my friends don't know the real me, because people don't ask, they don't want to be bored with all of my extra stuff, so i just dont bother explaining. Even if i did, they still would not understand. There is only one friend i know who i think really gets me, and its a boy, and im not even that close to him nowadays, but we like to have heart-to-hearts every now and then.
I have not finished this post, just its twenty to eleven at night, on a friday night, and im coming down with flu, so im thinking i need some beauty sleep
my infinate apologies
but, to be honest, these may have been the most important exams of my life so far, so they needed alot of my time, it was very stressful, but they are done, and I have left school, and everything is just starting to settle down, so obviously i will be able to spend alot more time on my posts.
when leaving school, i was asked, why am i so interested in "fashion", i hate saying that i am into fashion, because i think it is so single minded and almost common. But, anyway, i was posed with this question, and i really did not know what to say. Its like when people say to gay people, when did you realise you were gay? and they say that they never just realised, its always been there inside of them. This may have been the only time i have ever talked to any of my friends about fashion. We talk about about fashion, but it just isnt in depth, it was always talks of buying something from the high street. I just dont think they get it, i would like to have someone to have a proper conversation with about fashion. Just one of the pointless reasons that i can't wait to leave this place, recently, it was really been getting me down. My town is very common, with not much fashion sense. I wore a high bun in my hair one day, and people thought i was stupid. i met an ex teacher of mine who said she never realised it was me, because of my perculiar hair style :S
no can be an individual in this place, its like a clone machine. If you don't shop in primark and wear £3 clothes, you arn't in fashion these days, or so it seems here. I need to go somewhere with people who actually get me :/
i even feel like most of my friends don't know the real me, because people don't ask, they don't want to be bored with all of my extra stuff, so i just dont bother explaining. Even if i did, they still would not understand. There is only one friend i know who i think really gets me, and its a boy, and im not even that close to him nowadays, but we like to have heart-to-hearts every now and then.
I have not finished this post, just its twenty to eleven at night, on a friday night, and im coming down with flu, so im thinking i need some beauty sleep
Thursday 1 May 2008
Don't be silly, wrap your willy
Not only should everyone practise safe sex, but it should be done in style.
Monday 28 April 2008
chit chat
Monday night.
and as they say somewhere, i could chat until the cows come home, attempting to sound knowledgable by using little old world phrases.
Got some great buys on ebay recently, and typically, my camera is not working at present, but hopefully, I can display my finds soon.
basically i found
A pair of large black framed clear lens glasses. I love the new clear lens glasses at american apparel, but while im searching for a job, im on a low-ish budget.
Some knee high patterned grey socks, ive had my eye on a pair from american apparel once again, but beggars can't be choosers. American Apparel have some great
stuff in at present. I'd love a pair of acrylic blend cable knit leggings. I had my eye on a skirt from there for ages, and i got one when i was in american apparel in Oxford Street.
last night i also purchased a white bodice and a faded high waisted denim skirt a la Underbaraclara.
Once I get my camera sorted, I will post my London pictures. London was great to be honest. I also walked past the London College Of Fashion on Oxford Street. That is one of my goals of the future. When i go to university in around 3 years, that is my pure dream. Primark on Oxford Street was ridiculous, i have never known anything like it. People were camping out on the floor for the changing rooms. Some girls even resorted to changing in corners of the shop, and didn't care who or what people saw. I felt disgusting. But more on London on a later date.
Chloe Sevigny is a really busy bee recently. It seems like she is everywhere. It felt like that a month or so ago with with Alexa Chung, and the same with Peaches Geldof and Daisy Lowe a few months ago.
If its not her column in ELLE, which personally, isn't my cuppa tea, its her new campiagn with Uniqlo or Chloe. Uniqlo was canny enough. I got a lovely coat from there, but i just wasn't exciting enough for me. It was all a little plain. I do actually regret no buying more from there, but at the time, i just wasn't feeling it. The t-shirt i wish i purchased looks great on Chloe at the bottom. I just think she is all a name nowadays. No doubt, she has style, but its becoming more manufactured by the second.
and as they say somewhere, i could chat until the cows come home, attempting to sound knowledgable by using little old world phrases.
Got some great buys on ebay recently, and typically, my camera is not working at present, but hopefully, I can display my finds soon.
basically i found
A pair of large black framed clear lens glasses. I love the new clear lens glasses at american apparel, but while im searching for a job, im on a low-ish budget.
Some knee high patterned grey socks, ive had my eye on a pair from american apparel once again, but beggars can't be choosers. American Apparel have some great
stuff in at present. I'd love a pair of acrylic blend cable knit leggings. I had my eye on a skirt from there for ages, and i got one when i was in american apparel in Oxford Street.last night i also purchased a white bodice and a faded high waisted denim skirt a la Underbaraclara.
Once I get my camera sorted, I will post my London pictures. London was great to be honest. I also walked past the London College Of Fashion on Oxford Street. That is one of my goals of the future. When i go to university in around 3 years, that is my pure dream. Primark on Oxford Street was ridiculous, i have never known anything like it. People were camping out on the floor for the changing rooms. Some girls even resorted to changing in corners of the shop, and didn't care who or what people saw. I felt disgusting. But more on London on a later date.
Chloe Sevigny is a really busy bee recently. It seems like she is everywhere. It felt like that a month or so ago with with Alexa Chung, and the same with Peaches Geldof and Daisy Lowe a few months ago.
If its not her column in ELLE, which personally, isn't my cuppa tea, its her new campiagn with Uniqlo or Chloe. Uniqlo was canny enough. I got a lovely coat from there, but i just wasn't exciting enough for me. It was all a little plain. I do actually regret no buying more from there, but at the time, i just wasn't feeling it. The t-shirt i wish i purchased looks great on Chloe at the bottom. I just think she is all a name nowadays. No doubt, she has style, but its becoming more manufactured by the second.
you spend the evening unpacking books from boxes
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